Well. It’s been a year since I posted my “New Blog” blog. I failed. Lets see where this one goes, I have been inspired to start blogging…who knows, maybe I’ll find something to it. I don’t even know what this is about yet.
My life in the last year, my life now, and my life soon to come, how about that?
Since I last posted my “first blog” (if you can even call it that) I am a completely different person. I’ve experienced loss and gain. I’ve had bad times and good times. I had friends come and go, and come and go again. I’ve learned to say goodbye and embrace change. At times I’ve felt alone, and other times I’ve felt God’s presence filling me. I experienced deep hurt, and out of it came great joy.
All that was the past. I don’t really feel the need to, and it may not be appropriate to go into the details of all that has happened. So lets just move on to the present…
Right now, life is good. Life is good. That is such a true statement. I am, for the most part, very happy with my current condition in life right now. I struggle constantly with keeping my relationship with Jesus consistent, yet I know truly that he is there. I do doubt, and I do worry, yet I am constantly asking and pleading to him to reveal himself to me, and I have faith that he will. Aside from constant spiritual battle, I do struggle with school. I am working to catch up, and I am very behind. For this though, I can’t just ask God to help me catch up, I have to also put my own initiative into that request. So while I struggle, I am thankful for them, because they keep my head straight. Being completely and utterly comfortable is a dangerous and vulnerable state, and I don’t want that. I learn from my struggles, and I thank God for them.
That’s the now. Sadly, my now is also involving a lot of thoughts of the future, and the future is coming fast, very fast.
I worry about the future all to often. I know God is in control, yet I want to take control and insert my own plans and ideas. I struggle with giving everything up to God sometimes, and just letting him work. I have prayed and chosen a Bible School, the Evangelical Institute of Greenville South Carolina. I believe this decision that I have made is what God has for me, and I am very excited to go. There I will be able to grow and learn more in depth about God and how to truly worship him in everything I do. Beyond that…I really have no idea, and personally it’s hard not having idea, having a plan. I just need to learn trust.
I guess those are my thoughts right now…at least the ones I can post publicly. This was actually rather fun to do, maybe I’ll start doing this more often.
I really think you should do this more often.
ReplyDeleteYou might not have a steady base of readers and comment-flow, but when people do read this, it's powerful. It's real. It's almost like we know you for you even without knowing YOU. I think that's something special because it's really interesting to experience that.
Secondly, I think you might get a benefit from it, too. Of course, you'll get feedback. That's always cool. You'll also get personal stories, and that's amazing, too, huh? And lastly, who knows, you might even help someone out there unknowingly.
Thirdly, journal entry posts keeps your memory fresh, and eternalizes REAL moments, thoughts, ideas, and events.
Finally, I think you might create a very intimate and creative atmosphere with lyric posts and journal entry posts.
I'd like to see this progress, but don't do it because you feel obligated. If you stop, you stop. That's fine.
Peacy
Thanks dude. I actually was thinking about starting up again a couple weeks ago. I definitely will try.
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