Overcast Days

I figured this would be a good place to start publicly posting my “songs”. I enjoy writing lyrics, which I intend to put to music someday. I don’t put up many due to them being personal…but some of them I wouldn’t mind getting feedback on. =]

This is my most recent,

Today it’s a sunny day for me, and cloudy for you
It’s hard I know, but we all have those days, overcast days
So I need you to remember: the sun is always shining above the overcast sky
And even though I can see the sun, and you see the gray
I know that it won’t always be that way

[Chorus]
Yes, the sun is always shining, even when you can’t see it
Like the Lion, it comes and it goes, but it’s always there.
So just keep believing, believing

When we take flight, we always come down
And when we are down on the ground
It’s not always sunny, but the clouds are only temporary
There are days when we fly, and we soar in the sky,
We are near, and see it shine.

Someday, someday we will always fly
For all of eternity
And be surrounded in the light
Of the Son.

Past, Present, and Future

Well. It’s been a year since I posted my “New Blog” blog. I failed. Lets see where this one goes, I have been inspired to start blogging…who knows, maybe I’ll find something to it. I don’t even know what this is about yet.

My life in the last year, my life now, and my life soon to come, how about that?

Since I last posted my “first blog” (if you can even call it that) I am a completely different person. I’ve experienced loss and gain. I’ve had bad times and good times. I had friends come and go, and come and go again. I’ve learned to say goodbye and embrace change. At times I’ve felt alone, and other times I’ve felt God’s presence filling me. I experienced deep hurt, and out of it came great joy.

All that was the past. I don’t really feel the need to, and it may not be appropriate to go into the details of all that has happened. So lets just move on to the present…

Right now, life is good. Life is good. That is such a true statement. I am, for the most part, very happy with my current condition in life right now. I struggle constantly with keeping my relationship with Jesus consistent, yet I know truly that he is there. I do doubt, and I do worry, yet I am constantly asking and pleading to him to reveal himself to me, and I have faith that he will. Aside from constant spiritual battle, I do struggle with school. I am working to catch up, and I am very behind. For this though, I can’t just ask God to help me catch up, I have to also put my own initiative into that request. So while I struggle, I am thankful for them, because they keep my head straight. Being completely and utterly comfortable is a dangerous and vulnerable state, and I don’t want that. I learn from my struggles, and I thank God for them.

That’s the now. Sadly, my now is also involving a lot of thoughts of the future, and the future is coming fast, very fast.

I worry about the future all to often. I know God is in control, yet I want to take control and insert my own plans and ideas. I struggle with giving everything up to God sometimes, and just letting him work. I have prayed and chosen a Bible School, the Evangelical Institute of Greenville South Carolina. I believe this decision that I have made is what God has for me, and I am very excited to go. There I will be able to grow and learn more in depth about God and how to truly worship him in everything I do. Beyond that…I really have no idea, and personally it’s hard not having idea, having a plan. I just need to learn trust.

I guess those are my thoughts right now…at least the ones I can post publicly. This was actually rather fun to do, maybe I’ll start doing this more often.